October 15th, 2008

This blog is written for one person in particular, so it probably won't be even semi-interesting to you. 

In the past couple days I have realized how much of my old life I have left behind, and all of the aspects that I don't ever want to leave. I go on thinking about how happy I am to have all of the new friends I have, but rarely do I think about the great friends I left at home. True, there were few I expected to last past the summer, and I was right. But there are still a small number of friends who have had a great impact on my life and whom I refuse to fall out of touch with. I will generally be pretty quick to say that the majority of my friendships so far have been shallow and short-lived.

There are two friends in particular who I think about and talk about on a daily basis. I cannot wait to see them. I want to tell them everything that is going on, but that would be pretty hard to do. There are just too many random moments that are fun for one reason or another, and I could never explain them. 

We are just leading such different lives. I don't know how to make them feel like I am not leaving them behind. No matter what happens, you are home. You know who you are, and I know you read this. My family can move around as much as they please, but you are home. You are my best friend. You have watched me grow for years now, and that is fact. It will never change, and I will never stop loving you. I could never judge you. Whatever you may get yourself into, or the things that you will be thrust into, I am here. Where I live and who I live with will continue to change through my life, but I will never leave this friendship. Every February 26th I will remember all of the things we've been through and all of the things I will always be ready to go through with you.

I'm sorry I haven't told you everyday just how impossible it is for me to ever give up one being your friend. We may not be living very comparable lives anymore, but I don't want you to worry.